dreams

My dreams seems to be everything about him these days. After that incident, though i vaguely remember. Everyday, my dream changes. And everyday would be about him. I wonder why. I swear i never had feelings towards him. Haha, i guess god wants to show me the true meaning of life?

6th August - 3.27 a.m

EVERYTHING SEEMED VERY WRONG. WHY HIM?
I should have listened to him earlier.
I actually drowned 5 minutes ago until he saved me.
We seemed to be melting in each others arms.
Everything felt cold and wet except the warmth of his body around me.
Haven't i realized than I'm naked? In the hands of the guy i seem to KNOW?
I couldn't pull away from him, everything feels heavy and hard.
Any movement would only tires me.
He seemed to be muttering something under his breath, sobbing.
"I love you, please don't go. please.. please.. " Is he crying?
Then he kissed my hair gently for how long i couldn't remember.
OH, then i started to cry. It seems forever that we sat together, crying.

Just then something interrupted. A knock?
Where the heck did it came from?
Then my heavy lash actually opened slowly.
He began to fade, like ashes being blown by the wind.
Then everything became very dark. Just then i realized someone knocked the door.
OHH, it was just a dream. just a dream..
Then i continued crying, oh how i wish it wasn't a dream.

FYI ; i actually cried for 3 hours after this dream. I was shocked, why him? I hurt my own feelings thinking about this dream. Do i actually have feelings towards HIM? I don't seem to ever remember anything physical or emotional contact with him. Hah, it's a dream after all right? So move on with life and do forget about him. Though i knew i couldn't

games - top 5

can't take my attention of them :)

1) left 4 dead
2) guitar geek / guitar hero
3) street fighter
4) bully
5) R.C & P.S

TO MY CAMPAIGN BUDDIES

Alicia , Fatihah , Nadiah , Athirah , Shahman , Farhan , Fadma , Nazhif :)

Thank you so much for running the campaign without me.
I'm sosososososo sorry for not being there with you guys ,
I hope everythings fine. I know you guys can do it.
Special thanks to Nazhif , for doing MY speech.
THANK YOU TENKYUUUU!!

i heart you guys so much.

not important

WELL, I'M BACK
with disease.
H1n1? i guess so
symptoms ? i got it all.

and oh, can't wait campaign launching on Monday.

cuti -cuti ^.^

OFF TO HELL FOR 4 DAYS, CIAO

believe it

Can you ever believe that i screwed up almost everyone's life?
Yeah,of course you believe it because I'm a friggin naughty bitch
I need to let it out before turning 14 this sunday
Ok, so here it goes. It's call a confession

I'm a liar, I've lied to everyone. But i can't even remember whom
I'm really really really sorry
I cheated in life, in exams and everything
I'm a naive person, sometimes i say this but in my heart's not the same
I really have this bad habit, it's actually being busy body
I really like to vandalize ppl's private stuff. Ha Ha
And i often feel awkward around ppl, unless I've known that prson for like months?
I'm not very good in socializing.
And yeah, i'm a hypocrite.
And i'm like a gossiping machine whenever I'm around people.

And do you know it took me more than 3 days to ask for money?
And sometimes even months ?
So it shows I'm a coward , and a very unprofessional socializer.

Ok, that's enough for today. More confessions next time on my blog.
And yeah, can't wait for my birthday :)))

Note to self : Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. I can't live without lying XD